1938

In B's case, I find a small vein is tender and knotty, the muscles are quite free. So has it affected the vein now or was it so from the beginning?

So, most likely it is varicose.

"The wandering waters of my life

Wash thy eternal shore. . .

But thy impregnable silence bears

With calm their passionate moans."

[Sri Aurobindo:] Good Lord! don't moan like that.

January 4, 1938

Laxmi is complaining of obstinate constipation. Is she not taking the castor oil recommended by André?

January 9, 1938

. . . I don't see that S's general health is worse.

He does not look so bad.

Don't you find him better? or shall we show him to Andre?

Not necessary.

January 14, 1938

You have seen our indents for this year, sent by Rajan-gam. You must have observed that R has asked for 30 or 40 allopathic drugs, and you have sanctioned them. I was wondering how, being a homeopath, he should require these. For what purpose? Is it legal, etc., etc. ? [The Mother marked "30 or 40 allopathic drugs".]

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Are they poisons? Because in that case it cannot be given and the best way would be to delay the order — until he writes to me and explains for what purpose he wants them.

January 19, 1938

In that list of indents, there are at least 8 or 10 which come definitely under the act of poisonous drugs. . . Rajangam said that these will be potentised by R, in alcohol. I asked, "Then, why doesn't he get them directly from the Homeopathy pharmacy ? That would be very safe in every way. Rajangam replied that as we have got a contributor from Alembic, it's easy to get them; but if he gets from the Homeopathy pharmacy, Mother will have to pay for them. . .

Rajangam's explanation is satisfactory. So they can be bought.

January 20, 1938